Crossed off the list 26/03/2011
Excerpt from my journal:
Thought I better be brave and go out for dinner on my own – baby steps! Was pretty embarrassed though when I asked for a table and the man said, “Just a table for 1? Don’t think I can do it…” Hmmm, maybe this was a bad idea after all…Thankfully, I knew the guy who runs the place and he was kind enough to make a table up for me (thanks Jez!). Ordered a drink, feeling very alone and exposed. Are the other patrons looking at me? Are they thinking, “What a loser, sitting on her own on a Saturday night…”? Hope not. I feel like I’m on show though, sitting in the font window, people looking in. I square my shoulders, hold my head up high, and flick my hair back – I’m not going to give in and run home, I can do this! Feel empowered and brave (although my hands are shaking a little). No book, no partner, no distractions…just me, on my own. Finish my meal and leave a nice tip for Jez. Feel good about the experience and I am glad I went out, instead of staying in and ordering pizza – somehow, I don’t think it would have been as satisfying…
let your joy rise 